Eva Mendes Breaks Down In Tears Talking About ‘Hardest Thing’ About Parenting Her Kids With Ryan Gosling: ‘I Don’t Like Myself’

"My household when I was little was very chaotic, a lot of screaming, a lot of anxiety, a lot of turmoil, even though I had a loving family, and I still have a loving family," the Ghost Rider actress continued, before going on to talk about the "shame" and "guilt" she feels for making negative comments about her childhood.

"My mom had a very difficult childhood full of trauma," Mendes explained. "A lot of shame came up for me because I was like, 'I have it so good. My mom, she fought to get here. I was the only one born in the States. How dare I even complain?'"

Eva Mendes Talks About The Parenting Habit That Is The 'Hardest' To Break

Mendes confessed that the "hardest" habit to break – and one which she picked up from her own mother – is "yelling," saying: "I don't yell when they need me. I'm never like, 'Shut up.' It's not a mean yell, but it doesn't matter. I yell. And it's this yelling that I find so cultural."

"I'm having a hard time getting through and not yelling," she continued. "The rushing and the yelling, that's the hardest thing to me. I don't like myself. I act like a baby."

Eva also confessed that she doesn't want to pick up her mom's habit of using "threats and fears" to discipline her daughters, adding: "I hope I don't look back in 20 years and go, 'Oh shoot,' because I really don't want to raise by fear." She then started to break down in tears, adding: "That's the one – sorry, I get emotional over it – because it's so not fair to the kids. I hope that I'm not unknowingly putting some pressure on them through fear like I was raised."

Eva Mendes Also Reveals Her Rule About Smartphones

Perhaps one parenting habit which Eva didn't pick up from her own mother involves smartphones, as they weren't around when she was growing up.

Speaking to The Times about how she doesn't allow her daughters to have smartphones or use social media, the Girl in Progress actress said: "Putting my kid on the internet and being like, 'Oh, search something,' that to me is equivalent to telling her, 'Oh, just go down the street in the middle of the night. You'll be fine.' I know that sounds extreme, but that's what I feel."